Happy Birthday!

Today is my husband’s birthday. I was really hoping to give him a BFP, but it isn’t going to happen. Not today anyway. Blah. I’m only 11 DPO (3 days before my period is due) so it’s not over til the fat lady sings.

So update:
I went to the infertility clinic on base. First of all, thank God they do this on base, it could cost a pretty penny out in town!  The appointment went well. She didn’t do much, took my information, told me the course of action and sent me to the lab. They took 16 vials of blood. Yes, sixteen. Fine, all for a good cause! After this, Juan has his tests (nothing invasive like mine, but still difficult…) and I have one more test. The HSG. DUN dun Duuuuuuun! LOL, it’s really not that bad. Basically they’ll inject dye into my uterus and take an x-ray. They just want to be sure there are no blockages or abnormalities. After the HSG we’ll wait for the next cycle then start meds and, depending on Juan’s test, IUI. Hopefully his tests are normal and we won’t need that right away, but no matter what they only do each treatment for 3 cycles. So if we don’t get pregnant on meds alone, we’ll move on to the IUI, then different drugs and finally IVF. So that’s up to a year of treatment.

We’re really lucky though, most people go through this for much much longer with no results. I’m hoping that we don’t have to move on to anything too drastic. Sigh. Either way, those meds have a high rate of twins. I don’t care what Pancho says I’m keeping my fingers crossed! I know it could be very hard, but people do it all the time and I think we can do it. A girl I know has twins and she said it’s just the first two months that are super hard then it gets easier. I think if we get twins first, no kid will be too hard! 😛 Like I said, I know it’s going to be hard. So is natural childbirth but I want to do that too. And YES IT IS POSSIBLE TO GIVE BIRTH TO TWINS NATURALLY. We don’t hear about it much because of, you guessed it, doctors intervening. So here’s what I hope to be in less than a year. 🙂

Well I’m off to try to get Pancho to go kayaking. 🙂

For Mommy’s of Angels

I am writing to you from Heaven
And though it must appear
A rather strange idea
I see everything from here.

I just popped in to visit
Your shops to find a card
A card of love for my Mum
As this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought
Every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card
From a child who lives in Heaven.

She is still a Mother too
No matter where I reside
I had to leave she understands
But oh the tears she cried.

I thought that if I wrote to you
That you would come to know
That though I live in Heaven now
I still love my Mummy so.

She talks with me and dreams with me
We still share laughter too
Prayers are our way of speaking now
Would you see what you can do?

My Mum carries me in her heart
Her tears she hides from sight
She thinks of me and misses me
Sometimes far into the night.

She plants flowers in her garden
There my memory dwells
She helps other grieving parents
Trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark
Though I no longer live on earth
I must try to find a way
To remind her of her worth.

She needs to be honoured
And remembered too
Just like children on earth
For their Mums today do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark
I know you’ll do your best
I have done all I can do
To you I’ll leave the rest.

Find a way to tell her
How much she means to me
Until I can do it myself
When we’re joined in Eternity

(Author and title unknown)